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Just looking at Wikipedia

January 04, 2010 By: srlasky Category: Miscellaneous

Illustration of the pain pathway in René Desca...
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I was looking at the updated page for peripheral neuropathy. I don’t remember some of the things I saw there, but now the more recent symptoms that I have been experiencing make sense. Things like the loss of balance. I had been thinking that it was just because I can’t feel my feet, but I think it is more than that. I think that the neuropathy itself has affected my balance. According to the wikipedia page I can expect a lot more degeneration in my normal functioning. More loss of balance, more loss of muscle mass and strength. More loss of sexual function. More digestive problems, more bladder problems, more loss of feeling in both my hands and feet, well, there can’t be much more in my feet, they already have no feeling.

This is really a bummer because I have been thinking that I the loss of balance I have been noticing when I walk Comet is not really happening. I have been thinking that my ability to just get down the street is not real, its a figment of my imagination, and that I really can walk, but maybe it is real. Maybe I really do look like a spaz when I walk down the street.

I know that I am not walking as fast as I used to walk. I remember when I used to go camping and there was only one guy in our group who walked as fast as I did. Michael Denby Doran. He and I used to just go off on our own and let the rest of the people get them at their own speed. Now, I would be lucky if I could get there at all. Just trying to stay upright on the sidewalk is a problem. I sure hope that I don’t have to cross any streams or anything like that, because I would probably fall in.

Even walking down a set of stairs has been a big problem lately. I know that this morning, going down the stairs at the health club, I felt like I had to hang on to the banister or I wouldn’t  make it. I even have trouble going down the 4 steps on my front porch now. Holding on to Comet’s leash at the same time as walking down the steps seems more difficult now than it did a few weeks ago. I thought that that was a figment if my imagination, but maybe it isn’t.

I wonder how long this degeneration will take. I wonder how long I will take this degeneration.

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